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HEY EVERYONE... Welcome BACK to my channel! Today I wanted to sit down and just talk to you guys. It's been 2 weeks since The Secret Life of Jeffree Star has been out in the world and I wanted to address questions you guys had, and expand on a few topics... I also wanted to reveal a few dark secrets that I wasn't ready to tell Shane or talk about until now... My whole life I've had a very hard time opening up to anyone... Thank you for listening.
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Kellie Reeve
Kellie Reeve Hour ago
You're such a beautiful soul, Jeffree. Know that you are loved ❤
Ursula Rodriguez
Ursula Rodriguez 3 hours ago
Wow you have A HUGE heart Jeffrey. I hope you and your mom are in a better place today. Prayers go out to you both. Xoxo 💋
Paula McCall
Paula McCall 5 hours ago
No ones ever alone, but we don't see it that way..because in all honesty if every one u loved or cared about was gone in some way or another from phone call to just a drive away and they dont answer we are alone..I have had my fair share of self harming and yes I do get urges, or think about it from time to time but my kids always pull me back and i admit my self to the hospital if it gets to bad, and we find different meds that work for me..last year i had hit rock bottom in the beginning of November and I tried to camit suicide by over dosing on a new anti depressant that my doctor put me on because they thought it would work when I had told my doctor that I found an anti depressant that worked for me already but the new doctor didn't listen to me..but I knew I need to be on an anti depressant so i thought I'd try it 4 days after starting to take the meds they gave me I went off the rails completely..I messaged my husband and told him I can't keep doing this, and I can't keep living like this I love u and the kids tell the kids I love them and I'm so sorry..after that I called my best friend Purcell and he told me dont do anything I would regret doing and that hell call me in the morning to see how I was doing..that night our roommate ended up calling josh home from work because I was crying on our bedroom floor with my pill bottle empty imeaditly I regretted doing it..but one thing I learned is we are never alone even when it seems like we are we are not..
Pj Edwards
Pj Edwards 7 hours ago
Jeffreestar I just want to say I LovU I’m Proud of U n Huggs to U. U have An Amazing Soul.
Nicole Stucchi
Nicole Stucchi 8 hours ago
I love you.... that’s all
nicola owen
nicola owen 10 hours ago
💕
Candace S.
Candace S. 13 hours ago
I need to go back and watch The Secret Life of Jeffree Star, but I can only imagine the things people go through to be their true selves. I heard the story of how your mom handled when the principal called to complain about you wearing red eyeshadow, so I think it is fantastic that you at least had your mom and Grandma on your side. I think you are a beautiful person, and I love watching your videos.
Delaney Roghaar
Delaney Roghaar 16 hours ago
No ones ever posted a video that I've related to more than this one
Sabrina Deane
Sabrina Deane 22 hours ago
Hi Jeffree, I've just commented on your Twitter as well. I was trying to send a private message but maybe I don't know how. This video made me cry when you talk about your mom. Even now that I'm typing this, I'm tearing up. My parents are almost in a similar situation and I don't know how to help them. Maybe you don't even check comments from this video anymore...
Rita Flores
Rita Flores Day ago
Thank you for being so transparent and raw it is so refreshing to see that especially with all of the social media "influencers". Thank you for being brave and courageous to be so open.
Kyle Billie
Kyle Billie Day ago
Jeffree thank you for sharing what's happening in your life We have a lot of respect for you and please keep posting♡
Gina Bizzaro's Ghosts
Your lips are flawless omg please come to my house and make me beautiful so men will like me..
Debbielee Theunissen
Wow... I just want to say I dont usually comment publicly about anything on youtube for starters.... i cant even remember how i came across Jeffree Star channel (a few weeks ago), but I cant get enough of you. I was sitting watching and listening to this story and damn it really touched me. Jeffree star you are so real and i love your honesty... not only have you found it in your heart to learn to forgive, you just love sooo hard. You are so compassionate and I am learning from this. You are amazing! Thank you for sharing your story and I will continue to keep watching. All the way from South Africa - Wish you could visit! I think I'm becoming a huge Fan. :)
Avis Coma Phoenixx
I hope that you’re feeling better, and thank you.✨🕊🔥✨
Victor Llisterri
Victor Llisterri 2 days ago
Full support! You're an amazing fierce bitch
Hollyravyn2 nonya
I love you even more, so raw n real
Teresa Sisamón
Teresa Sisamón 2 days ago
my family is also a complete mess and you have no idea how much it helps to know that online people do not always have it easy, that everything is not always what it looks like from the outside. just thanks for sharing this (I know I'm late but I'm just seeing all of these now)
Stephanieee Spencer
Love You Jefree, YOU Are SO STRONG. Thank you so much for trusting your fans enough to share this with us, we will always be here for you. Listening to this video was very helpful and therapeutic for me. It helped me not feel so alone and kinda move passed some of the issues I've been having.. so thank you from the bottom of my heart, you're my hero 💕
Tori S
Tori S 3 days ago
I sure hope everything is going well with you and your Mum. I hope your Mums okay... I hope you’re okay
shannon shubick
shannon shubick 3 days ago
Thank you so much for being so honest. I struggle everyday with a multitude of things, but mainly my boyfriend of 3 years dying in dec of 2018. Your videos are the only thing I look forward to. My soul is empty and my heart is broken but i love you and everything about your personality. You have the most beautiful soul I’ve ever seen. 🖤 please keep doing what you’re doing cuz SO many people love and respect you like I do
Megan Craig
Megan Craig 4 days ago
Love you Jeffree!! You’re not alone. I used to self harm and since being on medication and therapy I gradually have a healthier mental state.
Enrique Luna
Enrique Luna 4 days ago
I'm glad you made it through the other side and were able to make amends with your mom... you're very blessed to make things right. Good for you honey!
Lindsy Haber
Lindsy Haber 4 days ago
Jeffree STAR 🌟 I'm a fan! I dont have snapchat or instagram but i wanted to show love and support im from the Mitten (like your beau) and normally people from MI show alot of love when they have a platform and to see you showing love to MI simply by proxy is pretty awesome. I love that you're YOU and have been doing YOU when it wasnt cool to be different PEROID! you're inspiring, entertaining and beautiful! I wish you so much continued success cheers with Shirley temples of course! Xoxo
disturbedbiatch9 0
My old bestfriend used to cut herself! :(
febyanganne viiernes
I love you.. 😘
Chelsea Tully
Chelsea Tully 5 days ago
So cool to be able see how big of a change you made in your life, from childhood, to adolescence, then young adult, and now! You’ve been thru a lot, you’re going thru a lot, and you still make me laugh my ass off. I enjoy every video you make! And I’ve just started watching recently. Your RUvid channel is now what I watch whenever I have spare time (spare time is code for: when I finally have time to relax and smoke 💨 lol) I think you’re amazing. You’re my favorite youtuber (if that’s even what people say) only used youtube for music before. Saw a random video scrolling on my Facebook on a make up review you did, I’m hooked on you. So funny. Thanks for entertaining my life with positive vibes and laughter ❤️
Dakota Condon
Dakota Condon 5 days ago
I’m crying watching this 6 years ago I stopped harming myself . A few months ago I fell down another hole of depression and seriously lost myself and just like you said just had to see if it still felt the same and it didn’t and as weird as it sounds it felt good to know I didn’t want to do that and had no desire to. I met you this weekend and days before I was struggling to find a reason to live but meeting you inspired me so much knowing I can do anything if I put my mind to it and has a great life and make it whatever I want. I have never felt such a purpose to life till I met you in person . I love you and I’m so happy you’ve grown and are happy and found someone to be happy with. I wish I could have a full conversation with you especially about our moms. I feel like it would be so fucking inspiring you’re amazing and have changed my life. I hope I can meet you again! I love you ❤️
Samantha A
Samantha A 5 days ago
I appreciate your honesty. When you said that there is this sadness that is in your bones I totally got that. I say that about myself. Thanks for doing what you do!
Vicky White
Vicky White 5 days ago
Bless you and your mother. Thank you for also suing your pain to allow others to realize they are not alone and there is hope. This will allow all of you to heal, learn, forgive and enjoy life now!
Cristin Stuart
Cristin Stuart 5 days ago
I love you! We all love you! You always have someone. Anxiety and Depression are my jail cell life can suck more so then normal with it
Robin Schel
Robin Schel 5 days ago
Thank you Jeffree for sharing your story. You are actually helping me with my battle against selfharm and suicidal thoughts. Thanks to you I feel like I’m heard. Thankyou queen, kisses from Amsterdam
YaGirl Cherry
YaGirl Cherry 6 days ago
Hi Jeffree, I am re-watching this video for no reason, and I wanted to add another positive comment to the thread. I am also a “recovering” cutter with scars all over my arms and thighs... and when I watched the Shane series and this video, I cried. It’s such a complicated thing to be a cutter, and no one but another cutter can understand. I want to say to you and everyone else here who’s a cutter, was a cutter, or whatever the situation... you are not alone and there are people who love you (even if it’s us, a stranger). When I’m in dark days trying to get out of it, I now have gotten to the point of healing where I do not turn to cutting myself. I don’t even contemplate it anymore. There IS hope, and healing will happen for you. I love you, person reading this who is struggling with the same trauma. I started getting tattoos as a form of pain release instead of cutting. And to cover my scars (which I ended up destroying because of multiple relapses. I don’t really know what else to say other than that. It gets better. You are not crazy, you are hurting, and there’s a difference. Xoxo - Ya Girl Cherry 🍒
only1synergy
only1synergy 6 days ago
Happy 5 yrs. Thank you for sharing your story. More we talk, more we support and help. You are not alone.
Violet Eyes
Violet Eyes 6 days ago
Thank you, for being open and sharing god I love you , you've inspired me and you've helped me and I used to feel that way too and for all the same reasons. 💜☮💜 I'm so glad you can open up to help others
Allison Bellan
Allison Bellan 6 days ago
I have not spoken to or seen my son in 3 yrs. Your story gives me hope that one day we will connect again. You are an inspiration to me!!!
lisa miller
lisa miller 7 days ago
oh Jeffree... even though this is a year old i really do feel for you and i am currently battling suicidal thoughts for similar reasons. then last year i suffered a stroke and died for nearly 5 minutes. i went up to heaven and met jesus. i found myself bowing to him then hugged him. then looking past him i saw family and friends that lived before me and i also held my son who i lost in 2017 due to a miscarriage. they all had a message for me: keep going. God has a plan. fast forward a year later. i recovered relatively fast and God has still yet to reveal his plan for me. in time he will for you too.
kelly lee
kelly lee 7 days ago
OMG Bawling! My mom left me when I was 4. She died in a drunk driving accident when I was 13. I don't remember her. Life is short. So happy for your reconnection!
cassandra mainville
Thank you for sharing Jeffree. I was bullied a lot in school and got depressed. I wanted to die and feel something so I'd hurt myself. Thankfully, I found an angel on earth, a therapist who listened. For ths past two years I've been clean. (That's how I put it as it was an addiction)
Bailey Landrum
Bailey Landrum 7 days ago
You are Beautiful inside and out....jeffree I love you Coming from a person who overcame self harm The scars and mistake do not define who you are they show how strong you are
Michele Stonerock
Love you 👾
Stephanie Higgins
I love you Jeffree! You are such a strong, AMAZING and inspiring person. 💙💙
Eboii Wrecker
Eboii Wrecker 7 days ago
My family is going through the worst time right now we have been separated by child services because my mom can't find a home for us my brother is 5 my sister is 18 months and I'm 9 . I watch you everyday even repeated shows so it helps me get though missing my family SOOO much. Is not fair that they can come Seperate us ll because places winter rent to my mom because she's on disability . I hope pray everyday we will be together soon. Love you Jeffree ⭐️
angelica peoples
angelica peoples 8 days ago
Jeffree we love you so much.
laura kinion
laura kinion 8 days ago
You are such an incredible person. You are smart, articulate, beautiful and just an all around cool person. Never doubt yourself.
Kersty Philo
Kersty Philo 8 days ago
I love you Jeffree! I wish I could meet you, and just give you a big hug. 💕
Rachel Spencer
Rachel Spencer 8 days ago
Some of the most beautiful kind ppl have been hurt the worst. I love you
Antwon Cash
Antwon Cash 8 days ago
That eye peeking out his robe looking at us
Julie Rigby
Julie Rigby 9 days ago
Praying for you and I no about cutting. Postive attitude will vary get you through keep fighting never give up
Verônica Tessari
I understand you, I am mutilated since I was 11 years old by having abusive parents, and now I'm 23 already married and I have my children but those feelings do not disappear. it actually seems worse because I've always dreamed of happy days of freedom and now that I can live it feels like my heart is still in the past, unable to feel. Nobody cares if we get hurt but they are always shocked when we fall, I'm here waiting for happy days for us that are so different but we feel the same.
Crissi H.
Crissi H. 9 days ago
Thank you for being you and letting people know it is OKAY to be the YOU you want to be!
Jenny Parker-Stocks
Absolutely true!! Often the people who are hurting the most on the inside are smiling on the outside!! As a psychologist, I can confirm this is absolutely backed up by statistic’s!! People who are depressed and talk about suicide the most often, are statistically shown to be less at risk of acting upon it, than those who are depressed but don’t talk about it or suicide, appear to be coping and are smiling on the outside!! So never judge a book by its cover and always reach out to, and be there for, suffer’s ( even if they push you away, keep reaching, please, as that’s generally a classic ‘defence mechanism’; they are hurting so much and feel so rejected and alone, that they would rather push first, to prevent themselves being pushed away again and facing more rejection ) or, just people in general! Because, even if they look like they are fine and/or say they are fine, inside they might not be at all, and, may in fact be one of the most at risk people of all! Potentially, feeling so alone and depressed that life is no longer worth living, and/or feeling so alone and depressed because they cannot even show their real pain and suffering to anyone; either because there is no one who cares, or due to fear of the consequences etc..!! So please, always take time to be kind ( it costs nothing ) to stranger’s, check in on family or friends regularly, especially if you know they are suffering from depression! Because, even if they say they are fine, smile and joke, that can potentially be a deflection and a false front! In reality, they may feel so alone in this world, that they cannot even begin to fathom how ,or, to who, they can even begin to articulate how badly they are suffering , or, they may fear they will be locked away, if they share the “deep dark truth” etc! So, you never know that what might feel like a small interaction to you, may actually be helping save another person’s life; and preventing them from becoming another ‘Statistic’! Obviously, I’m not saying this is the case with every person; and I’m certainly not trying to cause mass panic! I just want to help spread some awareness, that is absolutely backed up by Statistics; that those most likely to actually commit suicide are often those that talk about it the least, or not at all, and smile and act like they are coping to the onlooker! So just food for thought, being there for someone, even if they try to push you away, costs nothing; but, it is in fact PRICELESS!! 🙏✌️🙏!!
Story Of A Girl
Story Of A Girl 9 days ago
gaaaahhh I love you Jeffree!! You are an icon! ❤
Jackie Ream
Jackie Ream 10 days ago
I love you jeffree you are an amazing person thank you for sharing your story with us I can relate
Kristel Jem
Kristel Jem 10 days ago
I Love you Jeffree! I was a cutter also. I've struggled with depression since I was a little kid. I'm 35 now and it comes and goes, but I haven't cut since I was in my early 20s. I understand by you saying "this isnt it anymore" because the last time I cut it was not the same. I didnt Need to do it anymore. I realized I am a survivor. I can handle life, sadness, loneliness, and move on now. I get you 100%. I also was Goth. But it was more for fashion and makeup, not attention or because I was "sad" I just love the "dark side" lol 😉
Jessica Kissner
Jessica Kissner 10 days ago
I can’t tell you how many times I have gone and replayed 6:33-6:53 that simple twenty seconds of honest truth hits me so hard, and sometimes that’s all I need to remind myself that it’s okay to not be okay. Thank you. It’s rare that I get told stuff like that anymore since I’m “better now.” Everyday is a struggle, and once again I thank you so much.
balbinder bains
balbinder bains 10 days ago
thats one crazy story
Teresa Cienfuegos
Teresa Cienfuegos 10 days ago
Sending hugs ohh my the pics you have great style I need to hear your music 🙌
Chelsea Henckel
Chelsea Henckel 10 days ago
Ive been wanting a tattoo to cover the scars on my arm unfortunately its pricey i hope i will have enough to get it one day
Lisamarie Blumberg
Lisamarie Blumberg 10 days ago
I’m so sorry you ever felt that way. You are loved, more than you know. I have been watching you and I am amazed at what an amazingly beautiful soul you are. As a Mom, all I want to do is give you a hug and tell you, that you are a valuable person who deserves nothing but love and respect.
Erika D-F
Erika D-F 10 days ago
Thank you for being brave. I know those feelings way too well. Love you!
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