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I tell you some more stories from when I was an awkward closeted teen!
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KemonoGalleria Music ☮️💜
Gay Panic! At the (Chinese Restaurant) Disco
Ellie Grace
Ellie Grace 19 days ago
YES
cheez wiz
cheez wiz 4 months ago
Yesss lmaoo
Chløe! At The Discø
@EmmaLovesBakugo omg haha
Andrew Russell
Andrew Russell 5 months ago
You are a literal genius 🙏🏼
slate is boring
slate is boring 5 months ago
literally it two
Lilienblut
Lilienblut 3 days ago
Anyone saw his eyecolor change? Was that an effect? Lol
Kaeley Perkins
Kaeley Perkins 12 days ago
This is before I really knew I was not straight, so I'm not sure if it counts...it certainly was one of the many breadcrumbs of gayness I left myself and only noticed after coming out! In middle school, I had an iPad. My parents often took my phone, but not my iPad. So any questionable material I wanted to look at I used my iPad! I read fanfics on there and eventually stumbled onto dirty fanfics. I was very confused by the language and body descriptions, most I caught onto over time, but the one thing I never got was the concept of um...female e*jac*lation and so I looked it up. Ultimately, my google search had a filter so I didn't see anything accept these two women in full cat body paint in a cage together trying to look _sexy_ . I leave this on there, come back from school, my parents take me on a drive, and notify me that they *let my little sister use my iPad and they saw the search title and the picture and had all these questions about my sexuality and I'm sobbing and they're telling me they'd be supportive and* that's the story of how everyone in my family decided I was some sort of gay before I even knew I was.
Ed’s mock’s and reviews
6:49 I want to know this website I ReAlLy WaNt it, I'd really want to send it to my crush.
Kocho
Kocho 12 days ago
I say this as a complete Christian woman: if you’re straight DON’T GO TO A GAY EVENT AND START TALKING TO PEOPLE LIKE YOUR HITTING ON THEM! AND ESPECIALLY DON’T PRANK THEM! SERIOUSLY THATS MEANEST THING EVER! I’m so sorry Philly 😢
andrew sandino
andrew sandino 13 days ago
my closeted experience was in 8th grade when this kid sitting in front of me was talking about how he hated gay people and turned to me and asked if i was gay and i said no and he high fived me 😬
Sierra Tamalonis
Sierra Tamalonis 16 days ago
lmaooo when i came out to my mom as bi she told me "all women are at some point, or to some degree attracted to other women. I mean women are beautiful they have curves, whereas men dont have anything, they have flat bodies...." and its been maybe 10 yrs? since then and im like yo....is my mom sure shes 100% straight?
M Cost
M Cost 18 days ago
I came out to my best friend from middle school by texting her that I had a huge crush on her then never speaking to her again, as you do
frid
frid 22 days ago
kids are so evil and stupid
Carl Does stuff
Carl Does stuff 23 days ago
People say my mom is gay And she is. My mom was married to two men (semi happily to one) before her sexual awakening ig My mom is married to her wife (my stepmom) now but people always are like ‘Ur mom gae Aha’ And I’m like, ‘yea.’ ‘...what...’
Casey Mutka
Casey Mutka 25 days ago
one awkward non-binary story from me: I was playing a would-you-rather game at a party where you pull questions out of a bowl, and the question I pulled was "would you rather be a boy or a girl?" at the time I considered myself 50/50 split, and my closeted ass and the one friend at the party I was out to just burst into hysterical laughter for a loooooong time, before I answered with my assigned gender and we carried on like nothing at all unusual had happened nope no siree nothing to see here just two pals having a good chuckle that is all
Harper Smith
Harper Smith Month ago
That story about The pride event is really unlucky oof
Idk123
Idk123 Month ago
Hold up, this was 5 months ago???? WHAT???
Uni tea
Uni tea Month ago
I was missing Dan and Phil Games all of a sudden so I came here for Phil because Dan isn't here ._.
YourLocalGay WithACaffeineAddiction
i have been openly gay ever since i found out but where im quiet is my gender identity. i am afab nonbinary (he/they) and only close friends and two family members know. and i remember a few months ago i was sitting on the couch and my brother comes up to me and starts yelling at me because i refused to shave my legs, he started calling me a boy as an insult but little did he know i was the happiest had ever been that month
Zeph the Wolf
Zeph the Wolf Month ago
Hey I know this is an old video but PLEASE do not take a sponsorship from Displate again. They are a very dishonest company known for allowing people to sell stolen art and do nothing to help the artists to resolve the issue. More details about it can be found here: twitter.com/sylvainsarrailh/status/1333396394166677505
Melissa Jackson
Melissa Jackson Month ago
I’ve bought like 5 displates 😂
Melissa Jackson
Melissa Jackson Month ago
Phil seems so much more happier and relaxed now that he’s out and I’m so happy for him 🥺
Vanessa Lam
Vanessa Lam Month ago
5:33 BRO THAT HAPPENED TO ME TOO AND IT WAS LIKE PUT 3 GUYS NAMES AND AT FIRST I WAS ABT TO JOKE AROUND BUT SOMEHOW:?????? IN THE END I PUT THE GUY WHO SENT ME THAT (I didnt actually really liked him i just wanted to see if we were compatible) AND 2 OTHER GUYS AND THEN IT WENT HAHAHA AND THE NEXT DAY THE DUDE WAS LIKE OH U LIKE ME AND I DIDNT BUT THIS MOMENT STILL SCARS ME TO THIS DAY LIKE I NEVER NOT THINK ABOUT IT WHEREVER I GO
VanillaKitty
VanillaKitty Month ago
I thought i was the most gullible person to fall for that love test prank. This made me feel a lot better.
Emmett Creel
Emmett Creel Month ago
Heyo Phil!! it’s been a while since you uploaded this, but I miss Dan and I wanna say I hope he’s doing well!! He deserves to be happy and mentally healthy, and it’s been a bit since we’ve seen him (which is perfectly fine, you can’t do RUvid forever). Hope quarantine treats you both well, no matter what!! Stay safe and Happy Holidays!! ☃️ 🎄
Sarah Faulkner
Sarah Faulkner Month ago
And here I am thinking about Buffy and Spike
Alex!
Alex! Month ago
I had my first and only girlfriend in like 7th grade (?) I really liked her but she was definitely not into me and everything we did was awkward until like 2 weeks later she broke up with me in text ☠️ I pretend I was okay but man that shit hurted 😂 ever since then I've dated straight boys and oh no
Tnr Y
Tnr Y Month ago
My friend kissed me at a party and was like dam I like that. We dated in secret for a while till we both had hickies and our other friends called us out. We broke up after and pretended it never happened. Crushing honestly.
Lila D
Lila D Month ago
3:48 one bad gloop and she do what i yoinky
Jessie
Jessie 2 months ago
I gotta know, was the restaurant disco called Willow...?
Evelyn Deen
Evelyn Deen 2 months ago
The prank website gives me second-hand terror that's so awful I would have imploded
Natasha Lawely
Natasha Lawely 2 months ago
that last one hurt... oof. also, rip jason. hope he's found love now
Rose of Noonvale
Rose of Noonvale 2 months ago
I mixed up the word thespian with lesbian and I told everyone my sister was a lesbian.
Myah Clark
Myah Clark 2 months ago
when i was in 6th grade my best friend would tell each other the first letter of our crushes name and try to guess. me being stupid gave her the initial EVEN THOUGH IT WAS HER I HAD A CRUSH ON. and then she laughed and was like "ahah is it me" and then i swear i spontaneously combusted. but luckily she was supportive (but straight) and we're still best friends 6 years later
Lauren Salz
Lauren Salz 2 months ago
i neeeed the osaka poster omg
draalien
draalien 2 months ago
1:03 Never have I related to something so much !! Holy cow, I'm terrified of that happening. 🥺
30,004
30,004 2 months ago
THE JASON ONE OH MY GOD NOOOOOO 😂😭😭😭
Millie Magic
Millie Magic 2 months ago
My friend sent us all a fake crush website and my crush was his best friend thank f**k he never told anyone or said anything about it 😂
Izzy Campbell
Izzy Campbell 2 months ago
This isn’t necessarily an awkward closeted story, but I came out to my parents by writing an article about Gentleman Jack for my student newspaper and sending them a copy
ThePandajpg
ThePandajpg 2 months ago
At the end of the disco story, he says they were really nice afterwards, but is BAITING someone like that really ok? Or just insensitive? He handled it well though.
themonsterfrombird box
can i just say yes those crush trick websites exist bc i got gay tricked as well and that how i came out to one of my best friends
Ninah
Ninah 2 months ago
When I was little, I used to think that "Le Mis" meant "lesbian" and so my internal gay-phobia avoided musicals for a long while 😂😅
Santos Cetorz
Santos Cetorz 2 months ago
5:43 - I would simply pass away
Felicity White
Felicity White 2 months ago
I was really unsure about relationships in general and this guy kept tryna get with me so I told him I was gay and then everyone else found out so I had to tell my family, but bc I was unsure they all thought it was a phase. Anyway later on I tried to convince myself I was straight because all my brothers were like haha ur not gay shut up, so I pretended up until 2 years ago when I tried to date a guy and it was the worst experience ever and I went into a full on internal gay crisis lmao. I’ve come to terms with it now but what’s annoying is that my whole family jokes about ‘that time filly pretended she was gay hahahaha you’re obviously straight hahaha’ all the time so I literally can’t tell them because they won’t believe me, they might say they do but inside they’ll just think I’m confused :( so basically now I just sit around, try not to seem too straight or too gay and have a mental breakdown every time I’m presented with a sexuality question on job applications 👍👍
Gabrielle Hill-Smith
THAT FUCKING WEBSITE ONE OMFG I OUTTED MYSELF ON THAT TOO!!!!
Angie Vic
Angie Vic 2 months ago
Honestly I would have cried if a guy would have done that fake flirting thinggg
dani dkg
dani dkg 2 months ago
Did you design these posters? And did Ghibli give you the rights to their brand?
Peach x
Peach x 2 months ago
The prank website one gave me huge anxiety and it wasn't even my problem lol
Heidi Olsen
Heidi Olsen 2 months ago
I did the same crush thing when I was 15 someone put the test your compatibility thing on their snapchat story and I entered their name and my name like an idiot and I just immediately slid up on their story and was like "ohhh wait I thought you wanted me to test my compatibility with you?"
Ken Seals
Ken Seals 2 months ago
I think about spike and buffy bc ✨bi✨
luna lee
luna lee 2 months ago
2:16 is that dannyboi? 🥺
Taylor Catherine
Taylor Catherine 2 months ago
no
Charlie-Rose Hathaway
Just me im just non binary gay and strange
Albert Grunnion
Albert Grunnion 2 months ago
My friend who lives on my street invited me to her birthday party with all of her school friends and I've never felt more sure that I am not straight than at that party. Her friends were all really nice and I taught them about gender-neutral pronouns, but I had to very awkwardly excuse my way out of a game of kiss/marry/kill by starting a conversation about camp rock.
twinArmageddons
twinArmageddons 2 months ago
omg the uni story made me so sad
Софья Черёмушкина
Зайти на канал к мальчикам спустя пять лет и не иметь понятия, что произошло и почему они больше не снимают вместе: сделано!
Pronerec
Pronerec 2 months ago
that second one happened to me-
Jerika Barbero
Jerika Barbero 2 months ago
друг друг
друг друг 2 months ago
I for sure thought I'd out myself to my parents when I got my wisdom teeth removed 😂 but all I did was cry because Freddie Mercury's dead and because I didn't have a strawberry smoothie... I don't even like strawberry smoothies 😂...
Hot Dogs 2
Hot Dogs 2 2 months ago
7:30 I'm surprised Phil didn't think the L and G in "LGBT" stood for Ladies and Gentleman lol
Amelia Traska
Amelia Traska 2 months ago
I came out as lesbian to my mom when I was 10 and she said that it goes 10, 11, 12, gay. So that made me die.
Blue Little Elephant
Phil: nO I’m NoT sTrAiGh wHaT do You mEAn?! Me: *chokes* Me: *wheeze* Me: *laughs so hard I start coughing*
Taylor Stormwood
Taylor Stormwood 2 months ago
So, okay, I'm bigender and questioning as fuck. I know I like guys, but women scare the shit out of me cuz I'm so used to them just tolerating my existence that when one of them shows more interest in me than that it just sends me into a confused panic? Literally like discovering attraction for the first time in grade school. I haven't had many "situations" to speak of because of that. I was seeing this girl online who was also bigender (identified as female 90% of the time) and that was fun but didn't work. Had a best friend who I'd intermittently crush on and she'd do the same with me but the timing was never right. The most recent thing is I had this newer friend who was definitely attracted to me and I was terrified but super eager to discover that part of myself, so I... reciprocated things and once they started getting a little... heated? I completely panicked, made an excuse and left 😅 Summary: I may be questioning all the way to the grave. 👍
Cally Jorkowski
Cally Jorkowski 2 months ago
5:45 Dude my best friend did the exact same friend because I never say my crush. (Mini panic attack)
Cally Jorkowski
Cally Jorkowski 2 months ago
I dont like him anymore I hAvE nO cRuSh LoL nO oNe AsKeD
Cally Jorkowski
Cally Jorkowski 2 months ago
She asked "do u like Gerald?" And I did (Gerald isnt the name) and I said what no i mean the uh. Basketball player, bearing in mind I have literally no idea about basketball. I dont think she fell for it..
furious magician
furious magician 2 months ago
WARNING!! CRINGE STORY- so in 7th for my orchestra class we had to go to this big concert thing with multiple other schools. I saw this girl and she had kinda emo hair and this huge bow and my hair was blue and black. basically we kept complimenting each other then she called me hot... *INTERNAL GAY PANIC* _I DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING_ LIKE W H Y *CRYING NOISES*
Sarvin
Sarvin 2 months ago
Awww
Charis Simpson
Charis Simpson 2 months ago
My parents and grandparents got me one of those sex education books and my mum and grandmother read it first and their decision was it was inappropriate and so they hid it so I couldn’t read it (as you do) but I found it and read it anyway and the part they found inappropriate was about gay people lmao. Jokes on them I’m still gay
Ali P
Ali P 2 months ago
i dont think ive audably said "oh no" to a youtube video before. the cringe is strong man
Ali P
Ali P 2 months ago
Charis Simpson it's called awkward stories and I cringed when it was awkward. Kinda self explanatory
Charis Simpson
Charis Simpson 2 months ago
What’s ‘cringe’ about it?
Victoria Ko
Victoria Ko 2 months ago
"Do you wanna talk" YEAH WTF DOES THAT MEAN one of my exes fking said that to me after he dumped me and I was like... WTF IS THERE TO TALK ABOUT?
Jo
Jo 3 months ago
Omg the MSN prank story happened to me as well except it went to my crush's best friend 😂😭 oh my god I can still feel the SHAME and this was like 15 years ago or something at this point.
Unrealistic Fiction
Unrealistic Fiction 3 months ago
6:27 weirdest phrase
Lefty Lewis
Lefty Lewis 3 months ago
Ur northern accent strong asf in this video
Lightning Dust
Lightning Dust 3 months ago
I just outed myself as bi to my whole class.... Basicalllyyy.... One of the kids in my class was looking up 'chicks with guns' on Google (we are year 8's, I don't know what you expect... we also had Google banned, so we have to use Explorer.) And I looked at his screen and my jaw just dropped, and I was like 'that is hot' and every one looked around at me.... ahhhh! Then a different kid in my class (he shall be called "Billy McJeff") looked up Belle Dephline... I saw a few people walking over to his computer, and I walked over... And it was this girl just... It was a music video... Look it up... And it was... just... ahem... I was watching, and he asked why I said 'I like girls, and boys!' He just said 'okay...' and that was it. (This was BEFORE the above events:) At the end of class, we were heading out, and a different class walking in. Billy McJeff must have noticed me staring at this girl... she looked amazing, though!!!... and he gave me a look... I was embarassed as hell!!! In Forest Schools, Billy McJeff, said something along the lines of "That girl was checking you out". And I blushed. So. Hard.... I think he was joking... But this girl kinda set my GayDar off, but GAYDAR LIES alot of the time... Annnyy wayyy... thats how I outed myself. It's 3am, so I'm sorry if this makes no sense... ||-//
Noah Verweij
Noah Verweij 3 months ago
So those websites are still a thing and that’s how I got outed to my whole school.... wish I had gotten a brainwave like that..
MissValentina
MissValentina 3 months ago
6:13 I hadn't heard that MSN messenger sound in years, I'm emotional now! Ok sorry, moving on.
mom come pick me up im scared
my friend sent me one of those crush prank websites and at the time I had a crush on her girlfriend so you know how that went...
Ryan Medeiros
Ryan Medeiros 3 months ago
my brother used to say “loan me $20 or you’re gay”... but ever since i came out it’s not “loan me $20 or you’re straight”
Airplane Washrooms
Airplane Washrooms 3 months ago
gei
Eepers Jeepers
Eepers Jeepers 3 months ago
I like to watch this video when I’m feeling sad and gay. Thank you Phil, this is very calming and stress relieving. I very much appreciate you.
HollyRoseFowlCasson
HollyRoseFowlCasson 3 months ago
Answer to the anaesthesia question: I didn't exactly out myself, but I did keep telling my mom that I loved my girlfriend. My mom knew her as my best friend tho so she just saw it as gals being pals
Ana
Ana 3 months ago
I felt so bad about the second story. Turned out ok, but if it had happened to me I would have freaked out
Chuchu Cos
Chuchu Cos 3 months ago
Me and my current gf weren't out yet and she came with me to a family gathering and everyone kept on saying we looked like twins cause we both had ginger hair and it was so awful and awkward (my gf has died her hair black now lmao)
Chuchu Cos
Chuchu Cos 3 months ago
when I came out to my parents they just said 'yeah we know' lol
Charis Simpson
Charis Simpson 2 months ago
My mum said ‘I’ve known for ages’ lmao
The Invisible Ash
The Invisible Ash 3 months ago
One of my friends was leaning over to get a piece of fluff out of my eyelash and she was super close to my face, in my head i was like shiiii- i wanna kiss her. GAY PANIC ENSUED and turned my head and sle accidentally hit my face with it ahahah
Fiona H
Fiona H 3 months ago
My entire life consists of my best friend and I nearly outing ourselves and me eventually slipping and letting my mom see my background on my computer that had a bunch of pride flags and then hanging up a lesbian flag that my dad eventually saw... I don’t think he knew what it was though, he just pointed at it and said “I like that drawing you did”😂
Lord DampNut
Lord DampNut 3 months ago
I remember telling my mom I'm bi and I asked her not to tell my dad. She told him and neither actually believe I'm bi
Julianne Harvey - Student
Yesssss spikeeeeew
Clara Blunsdon
Clara Blunsdon 3 months ago
so many of these is was like oh phil...oh pHil...OH PHIL
SmellamyBlake
SmellamyBlake 3 months ago
If it helps I once accidentally hit on a girl not knowing that the girl standing next to her was her girlfriend.
ty says hi
ty says hi 3 months ago
Person: so whos your crush? Closeted gay: *gay panic* Me: *laughs in bisexual*
Lillian McEvoy
Lillian McEvoy 3 months ago
I identify as “slightly American”
Caralina Bustamante
Caralina Bustamante 3 months ago
Phil you are such a cutie pie. Hope 2020 has been kind to you, cause it sure is hell for me :)
MrProvincial
MrProvincial 3 months ago
"No gay love for Phil in a Chinese restaurant disco" sounds like a good name for a band
ii_SamanthaPlayz
ii_SamanthaPlayz 3 months ago
who else wants dan and phil to just get married already? 😉
BrynBerry Draws
BrynBerry Draws 3 months ago
MY GAY STORY IS LITERALLY FIGURING OUT I WAS BI BECAUSE I WAS WHIPPED FOR MY BEST FRIEND, PANICKING FOR THREE YEARS, HER COMING OUT AS PAN, AND HER KISSING ME AT ONE OF MY CHOIR CONCERTS IN FRONT OF LITERALLY EVERYONE
Sunflower Zombies
Sunflower Zombies 3 months ago
haha so was phil gay and if so is he STILL gay!?
Nova Imperator
Nova Imperator 3 months ago
So I'm a lesbian, and when I was in like, 2nd grade I think (or what would be Year 3 in England) I kissed my best friend on the cheek and was so confused when she made a huge deal out of the fact I kissed her. If that's not closeted ignorance I don't know what is
Rachel D
Rachel D 4 months ago
I don't have gay panic but I do have ace panic. I swear to god. We are watching a movie in history class called "The Reader." And I swear half of the movie thus far has been sex scenes and I feel so awkward everytime.
danthomastaylor
danthomastaylor 4 months ago
Have you since found out whether Jason is actually gay or not...👀
zZDieciest WolfZz
zZDieciest WolfZz 4 months ago
2017:After a really long weird dare game thing, I told the girl I liked that I used to like her, she said same. *Insert gay panic here.* I still did like her and I thought she was straight, but she had liked me at some stage and no longer did. Flash forward to now where I cannot be friends with her at all because I constantly want to kiss her and she doesn’t feel the same.
Wyatt Waterhouse
Wyatt Waterhouse 4 months ago
No one: Not a single soul: the ad at the start: shove your tampons up there ladies
Skyler Maxwell
Skyler Maxwell 4 months ago
apparently octopi eat themselves when they get stressed.
Ida
Ida 4 months ago
My PANic times often just involves confusing a lot of people.
Your Mom
Your Mom 4 months ago
I’ve been out for so long that when i meet new people i forget that new people won’t just assume im gay
isobel brown
isobel brown 4 months ago
ngl when i was in year 7 i had read the milk fic
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